Full of Wisdom. Values Formation.

I'm loving our subject Values Formation..not that I hate it lo.. Whenever we come to the part of applying the lesson in real life, i feel so absorbed and dreamy.. that's how my imagination works and then off to dreamland!hahaha..just kidding wo.. I could feel that our instructor have so much wisdom in her life and I couldn't imagine how she sees simple things that I usually neglect from far away.. We're almost done with the subject, in fact, this afternoon is our final exam (i just remembered now and I haven't reviewed yet!waaah..) .. im gonna miss it.. aiyo.. Let me elaborate some parts:

On our second or I think third day of the class, she had us made an essay about ourselves.. i even lost control of my writings that I almost poured my anger out..hahaha.. On the essay she told us to describe ourselves physically first..how we see ourselves on the outside.. then uhm...hahaha i forgotten nah..haha! anyways, its about our whole being, our whole personality.. how we talk, how we act, think, react, emote, view, and all.. basically its about who we are as a person and as an individual.. Looking back, I still remember some things I wrote on that paper.. I wont say but just to give you an idea, its about the emotion part.. I talked about trust and loyalty...there you have it!haha.. I found out most of the things I wrote were the ones that are hidden..(huwaaaaat???) those that are subconsciously below the surface.. the reason of concealing it? well *talking like Simon of Alvin and the Chipmunks* I believe a human sort of undergoes a denial stage of their journey in life.. where you avoid talking about certain things, avoid certain beings, just nod and talk avoiding to face the truth in front of you.. just like that.. And the one i still remember that I, myself, even surprised me with what came out of my mind, was about love..hahaha.. (wht?!) I wrote like this (or something like this) --- "Eventhough you say its over, for me, love is still there.. you might find another love but the previous love will never go away.. its just hidden beneath the new love.." --- And it is true, no matter how long or how much you wanted to forget or even if you manage to forget, it is still there..but just barely coz its now below the surface.. try to dig it and find out for yourself.. As for me, just thinking of digging it up frightens me.. I also wrote things that pisses me off.. especially the feeling of betrayal..where you trusted someone so much and in the end you'll find out that you were just something like a disposable utensil.. when in need you're there then will throw you away without certain reasons.. the feeling of hatred and (i wanted to wrote about ji du but didn't) disappointment.. well its all that..blah, blah, blah..

The other one is the one where we made a trace of our hand on a piece of paper.. Each part have different instructions.. Here's the explanation:

"When we are introduced to someone, we normally extend our hands in a gesture of warmth

and welcome. It is worth considering that we extend our hands. It is not just skin and bones

we are giving. We are really extending our self. Who then is this hand that we are extending?

What "little stories" does this hand have to tell? What mysteries does it still have to unfold?"

I won't elaborate more it will take hours..haha! Basically its about how we consider things in life like what we wanted to achieve, our faith, what we think and how we think, and such.. We even shared in in front of the class and one of my classmate made a deep impression on me.. He talked about like he never did before..hahaha.. something different la.. i know how he feels coz i am a hypocritical person too.. the more we are pushed the more we wanted to back out.. In other words, the more pressure they give me, the more I wanted not to do whatever it is..wahahaha.. aiyo.. (-___-)'''

I could say that during such short period of time, I appreciated learning the subject so much that I won't be ashamed to apply what I learned in reality.. It helped me know myself a little better and understand things more.. Made me realize and see things more clearer.. Now I am able to judge things and give my own ideas on a higher level.. (I feel like taking up psychology instead!haha..)

So much blabbering wo.. but thinking of it, it awakened my subconscious part where I used to hide my inner feelings.. It's hard not to become more aware now and ignore the things around.. I rather keep to myself than admit.. To become a better person, things should be clearer, ne? hmmm.. wo bu zhi dao la..

zao!v(^0^)v